Beginning anew.

Okay.  I have written and erased this post two times now.  I think this is going to be an especially boring post this evening.  So my apologies in advance.  Also, side note, I just discovered the fantastic band.  They are called Kings Of Convenience.  They are perfect for some great quiet calming but fun music.  Doesn't make your heart pound fast, just makes you happy.  Happy music.  Love them.  Favorite song is Peacetime Resistance.  At least take a peak on itunes!

Well.  Today started out by breaking one of my new years resolutions, only two days in!  Ha ha.  But I told you they are practically made to be broken.  At least this one was.  I want to try to go to church every Sunday this year.  But my son is very sick.  He has a terrible cough that has been made worse by our recent incline in activity.  So I made a decision to not go to church.  Give my son a day and hopefully week of peace and rest.  I had actually woken up with my son today (tried to let my husband sleep in) in the hopes that when my husband woke up I could leave him and my son, and go to church on my own.  It would have been incredibly enjoyable I'm sure.  So in the future, instead of all of us staying home, I am going to revise my resolution to having at least one part of my family there every Sunday.  I think that is a very reasonable resolution.

We enjoyed our family day together.  I am having a LOT of fun with the 50mm lens I've got on loan.  I definitely want to buy one.  I believe I can get one for only one-hundred dollars.  So that is certainly what I will probably do in the next few weeks.  Wednesday I get to have my hair done for the first time since October.  I am THRILLED!  I am so looking forward to Wednesday.  I never want to go, I always have something else I want more with that money.  But as it turns out, every time I just make myself go I really end up quite enjoying myself. It feels so nice to walk out of the salon and feel pretty.  These days it seems to be less frequent that I feel that way.

I took photos of my mom the last few days and the photos of her are extraordinary!  She is so breathtakingly beautiful. She has no idea.  I would kill to look like her!  She has shocking ice blue eyes that change the way you see color!  She is tall and lean, and strong.  Built like a Goddess.  Of course being the kind and gentle person she is, she didn't make a big stink about it like I do.  No fishing for compliments from her.  Such an incredible woman.  One of the women in this world that makes a GIANT difference in the community.  Not only did she raise four children with ethereal beauty and grace, but she raised me too!  It's a miracle.  We are all also able to say that we put something forth into this world.  Which is quite a feat!  Five full capable and well rounded children from one mother?  Ya that is far and beyond a miracle.  That is an act of God.  My mother has certainly been gifted to us from God.

Here is my mother, her ice blue eyes, and a smile that could end wars.  I really felt that this photo captured the  essence, or soul of my mother.  It exudes wisdom, yet childlike happiness.  You truly feel like you can see her soul in her eyes.
This is taken on a rainy day out with the umbrella.

Onto a somewhat depressing topic ha ha.  Weight.  Self esteem.  Who doesn't deal with these issues? Well I have been seeing commercials for everything of course.  Jenny Craig, Nutrisystem, and Weight Watchers.  Weight Watchers is definitely winning in the ads department.  But the idea of having meals delivered to my door so that I don't even have to worry about trying to put together meals myself is very appealing.  Of course than I just feel weak and pathetic for not just doing it myself.  I would just like to see weight come off so that I could be inspired to get the rest off.  I read review after review and it seems to really work for people.  Lots of people posted losing 80 pounds.  If I lost that I would be beyond thrilled.  Apparently these people do this for about 3 months on average.  The only worry is keeping it off.  Being able to make your own meals.  Knowing how to portion control everything you do without your own personal chef and delivery.  It doesn't help that it costs $299 for a 28 day plan.   Although I must say I'm not sure I would mind so much.  For three months?  It seems worth it to me.  Anyway, we will see of course.  My husband has started dieting as well. He is an amazing dieter.  He counted the calories for a days worth of meals.  He planned it all out.  And he will eat the same thing EVERY DAY!  No problem  He doesn't mind!  Not to mention he drops weight so fast!  He's been doing it for 3 days?  And he already looks incredible.

Here is that adorable concentration face.  He's got his tongue out!  He is trying to peel open a stick of cheese.  Love of my life.  My beautiful son.

Okay so my son is making all these new discoveries.  He can now point to his nose, belly button, ears, eyes and show you his tongue.  He has started sticking his tongue out when he's concentrating which I find absolutely ADORABLE.  I love him so much.  I hope I'm doing an okay job with him.  I feel like a bad parent all day every day.  But what does a good parent do that I don't?  Anyway, tonight I'm going to bed earlier than lately.  In an attempt to wake up feeling fresh and ready for the day.  So, goodnight.  Peace be to all and all a good night.