Today, my God daughter Malia was baptized.  It was incredibly beautiful.  Holding her through the ceremony through her laughter and cries was just a beautiful bonding experience.  Seeing her go into the water and come out was so fantastic.  When she came out of the water and I wrapped her tiny wet little person into the towel, she cuddled close to me.  I kept whispering in her ear to help her to calm down.  I told her "I'm right here, I won't let you go, your safe.  Your safe.  You are safe and pure!".  She just calmed right down and molded straight to my body.  I couldn't help but be completely blown away by her security in my words.  I was flattered.

After the baptism my God daughter and I were brought to the front of the Iconastasis.  Standing there while they prepared the communion, we were brought to a complete silence in awe of the moment.  The presence of God was palpable.  It was terrifying.  You knew at that moment that not only was He right there, but there was absolutely no way of hiding anything from him.  You were completely transparent.  Every thought, action, and past regret brought into blazingly bright lights for checking.  Naked in front of your creator.  We all have nightmares about finding ourselves out in public naked, well today, I felt like it actually happened for real.

As I reflect on todays wonderful events, I can't help but wonder why I felt relief by being fully and completely lit up from the inside out by God.  It's terrifying, and it's so so amazing.  But more than that, it's a relief to know that He will still love you even after He sees those terrible inner sins that we so desperately try to hide.  At least we know that we will never be alone.  Not if we trust in Him.