God is Good.

What we usually pray to God is not that His will be done,

but that He approve ours.

~Helga Bergold Gross

Well God is truly good.  He answers our prayers in quite unexpected ways.  Sometimes overwhelming us with His love.  Sometimes He scares me.  Right now we're looking at moving into an apartment up a hill I've never been comfortable driving.  I am concerned with the location and financial situation we're moving into.  I'm not sure entirely how we're going to do it.  I'm praying that God provides for us and allows it to happen.  But it's still very scary.  I can't help but feel there is no way for this to work.  I don't know that we're going to be able to afford it, and I can't see how it can happen.  When I think about it, it makes me anxious.  My chest starts to feel constricted.  But I guess the truth is we just have to do it and see what happens.  We're taking a huge leap of faith with really  nothing to fall back on.  I can't help but feel very concerned.  The day we saw the place, I was really really torn up about it.  I knew at the time it just wasn't going to happen no matter how badly I wanted it to.  The next day, we found out that the owners were willing to work with us in small ways to make it happen.  But sometimes I wonder if we're kidding ourselves.  Because the truth of the matter is that It really is not seeming possible.  But God will guide us and show us if it is supposed to happen.  That I have the utmost faith in.  If it's not meant to be, than I'm sure He will provide a very obvious obstacle.  If it is, we will move.

On another note, I'm trying to find a way to earn extra income on the internet.  I've been finding these online surveys and starter kits to making money and may try it.  I am worried about scams of course, but have been successful in finding different blogs about who is and isn't legitimate.  Anyway, I'm going to try it out.  We'll see how it works!  Let's hope I'm successful!